Nerves of steel, I think not!

So I know I said before that I was less nervous about taking my GMAT now that its actually booked, that feeling lasted about an hour. Once it actually set in that I'm taking the test again all my nerves and doubts came flooding back. What if I don't do that well again? What if I still don't get into Pace? I always associated doing well on the GMAT with getting into Pace but it dawned on me that even if I get a good score, I still might not get in. There's no real guarantee. With all of this swirling around in my head, of course I was putting off doing my next CAT exam. Especially after falling behind a bit in my studying. I was scared that since my last practice test score went down that it would keep going down and that I booked my test prematurely. I put in some good hours studying and mustered up the courage to take the test and i got a 560! *phew* During the test I was so sure it was going to be horrible score because by the time I got to the verbal section I was starting to get sleepy and hungry since I didn't really eat breakfast. But it turns out my verbal wasn't bad and my math keeps improving so it turned out ok.

In other news, I finished reading Allegiant last night. It only took me a week.... 

I honestly didn't want to finish reading it as with all the other books I read when I know its the last one. With this one it was kind of different. I got a strange feeling from the beginning of the book that it wasn't going to be a happy ending for Tris and Tobias and I was right. I only delayed the crying for a week. I kept hoping that in the next chapter there would be some miracle and everything will be ok but no, it didn't happen. (I'm trying my best not to give away too much of the story). Of course once I finished reading it I immediately called Nick for him to sort of mourn the book with me but all he did was laugh at me which always happens when I get all wrapped up in characters from a book. Its also going to be interesting to see if the movies change the ending or what since I'm guessing contracts were signed about the movies before the final book was released so the actors are only now learning about their characters as well.

On a brighter note, I cooked pad thai for my family on Saturday night.

I am so proud of myself for actually doing it finally. I was saying for weeks, probably months, that I was going to cook it but I never actually got off my lazy butt to do it. It all comes in a box kit so all I had to add was the chicken and vegetables. 

This picture is from the last time Nick and I made it so ignore the expiration date on the box

Its really simple and to me its healthy since its rice noodles and not actually pasta. Everyone loved it and I even shared it with my neighbors and they liked it as well. When I was finished cooking it and started to eat it kind of felt weird that Nick wasn't there to eat it with me :( 

Right now I'm looking into booking my flights with my mum which is exciting somehow. I'm looking to leave in about 2 weeks  which would give me a week up there before my test so I definitely need to focus and get the majority of my studying done while I'm still here. I'm really excited to see snow again and to be in the cold but I'm more excited to see Nick of course but I'm still a bit nervous about my test. I even went google maps to look for the test center building to help calm me down.

I did this as well for my test in New York but only cause we had to know which building to look for. Sometimes I think all this does is make me even more nervous. 

Anyways, I obviously have a lot to do so its time I get to it.

Carla :D